its my life.

1adysoull @ 2007-06-18T08:40:00

2007-06-18T12:47:46Z

lately.. life has been somewhat stressing? ..and yeah it has to do with school.
can't really explain anything right now, but all i know is the SCHOOL LIFE is fuck up madly. Don't even know if i could go back to the Philippines next year now.
the situation is greatly affecting my studies. MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTHERFUCKERS!

on another note.. DAMN HOMIE! words cant explain how i feel right now.
if only once again, there wasn't a stupid someone protruding what we used to have.. then i'm pretty sure things wouldv'e been much better.
DIE BITCH DIE!

1adysoull @ 2007-06-12T05:18:00

2007-06-12T09:20:47Z

got no sleep at all. i can't seem to sleep!
anyway i haven't updated this in a while. WOW!
so many updates.
let's see, GOT HIRED at dixie mall.. & pissed off since i don't get my paycheque this week.
in a few hours, i'll be having a photoshoot somewhere downtown.

alot more updates, but i'm so lazy to update right now.
frig, i don't think i'll be even using this often.

livejournal got boring..

1adysoull @ 2007-05-27T21:56:00

2007-05-28T02:03:50Z

INKED..

can't decide. it's either 1 or both.
"BANATE" (which is of course, my hometown in the Philippines)
or..
"KANA" {my ultimate nickname that they banatehons like to call me)..

i got days to decide.

1adysoull @ 2007-05-16T18:28:00

2007-05-16T22:36:03Z

HAPPY BORNDAY MOMMY =]

wow, a big 50.
our housephone wont stop rining like MADDD! frig..
& now i'm slowly helping to prepare the fam/friends jam this sunday. Joy, Jay, & Sherdelle are reachin ;) ..still gotta ask more people to reach.. otherwise, it's just my fam. can't wait..

speaking of borndays..i'll be turning 18 in 7 months :)
YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS :)
I was thinking RED or APPLE GREEN as the theme color for my debut but i still can't decide.
anyway we booked the hall & everything.
unfortuantely i wont be having a cotillion BUTTTTTT i was thinking about doing a little surprize number with some of my loves ♥
OH WELL, IT'S STILL ON DECEMBER ANYWAY!!
more details about my debut will be coming up soontimes..

1adysoull @ 2007-05-09T00:08:00

2007-05-09T05:15:03Z

..these past 3 weeks have been great ♥
thanks to all who made my days a good one :)
spending each day here full of things to do & chillages makes me forget my problem that i have in the Philippines. Hopefully it doesn't come back to haunt me all over again when i wake up to a new day. PEOPLE, KEEP PLANNING! ♥ ♥

on another note.. got pierced again. Finally, another piercing after almost a year. parents don't know, but i'm sure they'll kick my ass after they find out.
However, I'm planning to get another one.. & the place i got poked made me have thoughts about getting inked as well. *still thinks.*

thursday? taking G1 test?.. hmmm, still don't know =\

1adysoull @ 2007-04-25T05:51:00

2007-04-25T10:18:39Z

Lately, iv'e been thinking about everything that's been going on.. including my past experiences i've had during those fobby days i had in the philippines. If only i could turn back time, i would freeze it so it would last longer.
At this moment, i'm missing those days starting from when i danced tahitian at the town fiesta, to tanning at boracay loosing my nosering & getting a henna tatoo, to night driving with the motorcycle, to reaching next towns and attending random jams, then going to Manila and went shopping at the Mall Of Asia for the first time.
Then when i looked after my lolo who just layed there in bed, to him telling jokes about our family & how were all so 'beautiful' & 'pogi', to that moment i saw him slowly dying to his final rest.
Then the time when i first attended school & caught so much attention, cussed out those assholes who wouldn't stop constantly asking for my number, distracted every classroom i passed by, had fun with friends & made fun of gay fobs who couldn't speak english properly.
Then joined a search for "ms.highschool" winning first runner-up & having my *AHEM* as my dance partner, to attending SIMBANG GABI at 4:00 in the morning & having a school trip to SM CITY on my bornday, to being mistaken as Angel Locsin by a group of fobby faggots at the dinagyang parade, to attending my first prom & was picked from more than 500 girls to be prom queen, then graduating on March 26th & jamming at the afterparty like there's no tomorrow.
Then the batch outing at the beach swimming in shit water with 'floating stones', to long walks at the sea wall at night looking for shooting stars, to raping that kareoke machine till we're broke, to experiencing the BEST HOLY WEEKEND EVER together with All my friends, then to the last day i stayed in my hometown & had dinner at the park with the important ones & then afterwards, walked at the seawall for the last time.

sounds fun right? i could honestly say i've had so much experiences that i will never forget in the Philippines. I don't even think that the above mentioned is HALF of it.

What really makes shit worse is that i don't even know when i'll be going back to continue where i left off. It's already hard to believe that i'm already a graduate from the other side of the world, who lives with a fucked up family & whos involved in a fucked up situation right now.

NOBODY understands what i am going through right now, but only a few of you know. I try to show a smile on my face, only to realize that the smile is actually FAKE which has a valid reason behind that. & sadly, this fucked up situation is also the reason why i'm NOT SLEEPING NORMALLY coz lately iv'e been staying up all night not doing much but thinking & thinkingthinkingthinkingthinking about what to do. If i should think of a better solution to fix this problem & work on my future or just commit suicide on the spot.
but i just hope that none of you have to go through what i am going through right now. It really does piss me off because i don't even know what iv'e done to even deserve this.

' keep holding on ' ...by Avril Lavigne
this song somewhat helps me to keep my head up. The title says it itself, "keep holding on".
This song was also the theme song in my graduation day, so it really brings back memories ♥ ♥ ♥

goodbye college 2007...

1adysoull @ 2007-04-21T03:53:00

2007-04-21T07:55:36Z

4/20
..another great night <3

1adysoull @ 2007-04-18T01:53:00

2007-04-18T06:13:34Z

okay, why is livejournal so effin' addicting for?
anyway, yesterday was jokes! saw my loves for the first time after how many months? nice bonding moment!
and everyone loves my penis belt =] ..CHAKTO!

btw; PEOPLE OF CANADA! STOP SEXING MY CELLPHONE FOR A WHILE, you're killing my bill =(

1adysoull @ 2007-04-17T09:29:00

2007-04-17T13:37:10Z

ERIK SANTOS ♥

gotta love him.
he's got the voice & the good looks. frig!
can't stop listening to his songs. YEAH, i absolutely can't stop listening to his songs. They get me all emotional and shit.
what else can i say?

GWAPO!

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anyway on a different note.. i finally updated the layout of my livejournal page after almost a year now? yeah.. it's not the best of layouts ever coz i was sadly loosing my HTML skills through the months i was in the philippines. So i thought it was best to teif a layout off someones page.
yesh, tank yuh shut deh fuck up nah =)
&& did i ever mention, i feel like the biggest FOB ever? T_T ..DOOMED!

1adysoull @ 2007-04-17T03:32:00

2007-04-17T07:43:28Z

hello canada...
well it's nice to be back home again, but i really do miss it there in pinas. i'll be back in a month ♥ ♥ ♥

the past 2 days were RIDICULOUS. got stuck in HK airport for 2 nights & 3 days. Luckly, that place is like a shopping mall, so i didn't get bored too easily.
i learned alot out of this "trip to the philippines for almost a year."

maybe expired chocolate is not so bad afterall =]

being light-skinned means you're more beautiful then being dark

you don't have to spend a whole shitload of money just to buy a pasalubong for your friends. they don't care just as long as you give them

image is not a competition

everybody prefers to use NOKIA CELLPHONES rather than sony ericson, motorolla, etc..

the value of money is very important.

being simple looking already means you're beautiful

you could never go shopping in peace. there will always be someone who works there following you.

i am really looking forward to going back next month and i'm excited too =]
weeks from now, i'll be taking my G1 just for the fuck of it. Alot of changes need to be done & gotta spend time wisely.
okie, gotta finish cleaning up my room..

1adysoull @ 2007-04-04T13:15:00

2007-04-04T05:33:41Z

hello guys

down to one week now, and my ass will be walking on canadian air =]
theres enough updates =] ..shoot im not gonna even start posting them up
i'll just see you when i see you..

BY THE WAY PEOPLE, START PLANNING SOME CHILLAGE DATES =] ..fuck

1adysoull @ 2007-03-13T10:21:00

2007-03-13T02:38:36Z

HMMM!

no class today & i'm already bored. FRIG! more and more and MUCH MORE UPDATES!
1. lolz last sunday, SHIT HAPPENED. It was fucking jokes too between 2 girls and 2 guys. one guy went home without a shirt & ripped pants..& it wasn't nice to look at
2. teacher almost got killed by a motorcycle O_O ...
3. no more classes coz now were practicing for the graduation program for march 31st. =(
4. cut & dyed my hair. GOT BANGS =]
5. performed our intermission number at the ceremony, now i gotta choreograph the production number for the search x( ...holy shit kadamo.
6. MODELLING AGAIN on easter sunday. i'm not as excited as before only coz... something...

last but not least...

hello canada, melz coming back on april for sure. i freaking miss you all, so start planning some DATES =] coz i'm only staying there for a month and as we all know, a month passes by so fucking quickly.

just a reminder.. if you think my updates are boring, then it's just simple. DON'T FUCKING COME TO MY PAGE AND READ THEM =]...getz? get out.

1adysoull @ 2007-03-03T13:25:00

2007-03-03T05:40:36Z

HOLY EFFFIN BEEP

finally after 2 months, i have time to update this.
and i feel like a true FOB coz i can't stop speaking the language here.
heheheeh UPDATESupdatesUPDATES..hmmm...i know im late.. shut-up.

let's go back in time..
January 23.2007: attended a fiesta at some next time. Went with enough friends, loafted around & ate enough. frig =\
January 24.2007: Took an exam entitled 'NCAE'. kinda hard but fucking jokes in the end. The questions for that exam starting to make no sense, so i slacked off and just CHEATED =)
February 9.2007: Night of JS Prom. I had to say enough speeches including the class prophecy which i really did good on =D otherwise, fuck the rest. ate alot, danced alot and of course, won as prom queen [pictures will be posted up next time]...and enjoyed the night till 1am. first dance & last dance <3 ...ahh i couldn't even sleep after that x)
February 14.2007: v-day of course. Cursed the couples [& most of them worked]. I had my 'valentino' which i didn't even know till after the jam we had. FRIG! but otherwise, enjoyed the day&nightlife =] ...fun fun fun!

AH SHIT, TOO LAZY TO TYPE THE REST! just wait for my pictures to be posted up on friendster..
those pictures tell a story =]

by the way, i'm fluent in ILONGGO NOW...so don't be surprized when i come back & you hear me saying all these fobby expressions =]...
' i simply got influenced'

1adysoull @ 2007-01-03T10:53:00

2007-01-03T10:53:52Z

merry be-latedby3days new year canada =]

new years was SHIT.
fuck yeah i can predict the future =( ...
drank 7 glasses of redwine & 2 bottles of gold eagle which is some shit juice that tastes like piss =(
anyways JS PROM IS COMING UP AND IM sEXCITED =D ... and someones birthday is coming up.. SECRET ;) , abaw kadamo =\
anyway gonna go eat some sEXPIRED jollibee food from the truck outside.
toodles.

1adysoull @ 2006-12-28T02:13:00

2006-12-28T02:13:37Z

another boring day...
this christmas holiday is so flop =( ... holy eff guy! my closest girls are in manila, the cousins are too damn busy for my ass & the computer at home is DONE WITH! good job melz.. THUMBS UP*
once my tito finds out, maybe i'll be done with too =P

on another note... i still have drama in my life & i have a feeling it'll never stop. OH I LOVE IT ALRIGHT =D
2 days after cussing her off, she's still on my back. nice to know she has a good life *smiles big*
and yes, she does read my livejournal.
2 down, 1 more to go..

by the way, can someone download the following songs listed below & send it to my e-mail... thanks!!
1. Erik Santos - I'll Never Go
2. Erik Santos - I Will Never Leave You
3.Nina - I Don't Wanna Be Your Friend
4. King - Maybe

Yes, OH MY GOSH.. what the eff happened to your taste in music melz..

1adysoull @ 2006-12-27T02:50:00

2006-12-27T02:50:45Z

by the freaking way..

does anybody here wanna do the honour of updating my LJ layout? it's old and its ugly.
get at me if you're up for it..

1adysoull @ 2006-12-27T01:53:00

2006-12-27T01:53:21Z

what a week =(
christmas eve was the shit =).. juiced with the cousins & friends, loafted around the seawall with gay people then went to midnight mass half drunk. HAAAAAAAA!
christmas day however was flop. ended up spending christmas night in my room listening to music while texting with friends. Didn't bother attending the christmas jam coz i was in such a bad mood.
yesterday was alumini 2006. Spent time with the friends, loafted at the seawall AGAIN and danced at the end of the seawall. We practiced our moves for our intermission number next friday. FUN SHIT =) ... started beef AGAIN with ms.bucktooth. HAHAHAHAHAHA! i love how she told her mother on me. Then my friends cussed her out as well, it was great to look at. but the night ended nicely. WATCHED FIREWORKS WITH MY FAVORITE FRIEND, took pictures and danced on the dance floor till midnight =) .. didn't bother juicing since half my family was there...
day ended nicely with a goodnight text from mr.gwapo =)

1adysoull @ 2006-12-24T10:21:00

2006-12-24T10:21:57Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS CANADA!

wow, 2nd time spending christmas here in pinas... holy fuck IT'S SO FLOP =(
so anyway, yesterday i decided to DYE MY HAIR =)... now i'm a brunette =P ... fucking hott
bought a whole new waredrobe & got new pictures (will be posted soontime)
later, going to church then jam after =S
MERRY CHRISTMAS CANADA!!!!!!!! miss you =(

1adysoull @ 2006-12-11T09:47:00

2006-12-11T09:47:00Z

5 more days

until i'm 17. eww i'm so young =(
well i haven't been online lately because my ass is so busy preparing for the school Christmas farty and my birthday jam.
yeah it's not gonna be as exciting as last years =(
their juiice is fucking CRAP!
but anyways... i'm excited for saturday, i don't know why. i'm gonna go on some whack trip to SM CITY and some colleges. HAAAAAAAA! shopping... then my friends got something planned for me but i don't know what it is?
" melz if u dont attend our surprize farty, u will miss hap ur lipe "
hmmmmmmmm.... "hap my lipe" ehh? ANG ULO MO!
yeah, starting saturday i'm gonna attend SIMBA GABI... YFC at 4:00 am O__o then gonna go on the trip then go to this SURPRIZE FARTY these people have for me..

got a new cellphone. well its not really new actually, it's an old nokia model but i still think its hott =) ... nokia 6680
YES, ATE JHAE! YOUR OLD CELLPHONE!.. shut up =] you're probably laughing your ass off right now =P

so that's all for now i guess? until next time!!!

DRAMA IN MY LIFE! DIEEE BITCH DIE!!!!

btw, thanks sam AKA daiinty.. for the song =)

1adysoull @ 2006-11-26T04:11:00

2006-11-26T04:11:57Z

WENT SHOPPING WITH MY COUSIN YESTERDAY..
i was suppose to buy my birthday present from my tito but turns out that my budget is not enough to satisfy me. shiiiiiiiiiit i need a new phone! a sexpensive one. lol
so i missed out on my dads birthday for the first time =( ... mom had a party in the house and im the only one missing from the fam =(... my gosh he's OLD =(
real plans flopped for my birhday but i made better ones, not gonna go into details though =) ... EXCLUSIVE!
and thank you god for answering my prayers, now im smiling like a motherfucker now =D
KARMAAA BITCH KARMAAAA ... it hurts =)

1adysoull @ 2006-11-20T10:00:00

2006-11-20T10:00:47Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN!

holy shit, this guy is 20 years old. anyway thanks for PICKING UP YOUR CELLPHONE, now i'm gonna get in shit with the phonebill =/ ...
moving on, saturday? yes, NIGHTLIFE! finally, another nightlife! i need this... my ass has been so busy with school lately, that i need time with the friends and fam. Been planning PROM & GRAD already. Enough people telling me i'm gonna be Prom Queen =P ... its jokes though.
Next Month's Sexciting Schedule:
- DECEMBER 12: NCAE exam (an exam that will determine what school i go to and what course)
- DECEMBER 14: trip to a mental hospital and SM CITY =P
DECEMBER 16: my 17th bornday ... (another live night)
and thats all i could think of right now =/ .. damn.
anyway i'm out of things to type for now, so ill update this when i can.
BY THE WAY! ANYONE PLEASE...SEND ME SOME GOOD SONGS TO MY EMAIL!... i'm fucking dying here with the music, its so bullshit!!!
thanks.

1adysoull @ 2006-11-15T09:39:00

2006-11-15T09:39:53Z

SO LATELY...
my ass has been so busy AGAIN =[ ... no time to go online. ahhh shit. so what else? enough people at school are fags man.. sexpecially the fucking guys. gonna fucking smack the shit outta them one by one someday. okay... thats it. TOMMOROW GONNA SKIP SCHOOL TO PRACTICE FOR THE CONTEST ON SATURDAY! =] ...yeheyy!!!!!
and thats all for now.. i'll update this shit later.
TOODLES! =]

1adysoull @ 2006-11-05T01:03:00

2006-11-05T01:03:45Z

" hey girl do u know how to play biscuit ball?"
now what the hell is BISCUIT BALL? =? .. you see, this is one of the many reasons why i cannot stand some people here. although i went home dying, but at the same time ... annoyed? mhhhmm
computer pissed me off yesterday, wouldn't connect so i missed talking to some people online. SORRY! it's the cheap shit technology connection they have here. can't stand sometimes..
well time for me to eat some peanuts, just to get the "annoyed" mood out of my system.

1adysoull @ 2006-11-02T10:20:00

2006-11-02T10:20:55Z

PLANS FLOPPED
coz my stupid ass got a fever. great, what a way of spending my first HALLOWEEN.
besides that, the guy & girl friends made my day by visiting me :) ... THANKS! although all we did was laugh for no reason, i still had fun.
so it's still sembreak here. 2 weeks instead of 1. =) ... although i miss school because i got nothing to do during the day =( ...
plans for weekend? I HAVE NO IDEA =(

1adysoull @ 2006-10-31T03:46:00

2006-10-31T04:05:47Z

i felt like updating again
because i'm a retard. yeah thanks..
no school today coz none of the teachers showed up at school. lol i love it. no teachers = no class. 92% overall mark in TLE .. fuck, anyway that class is so easy & my teacher is my tita. HAAAAA genius. past few days all i have been doing was loafting around town. this fucking child wont stop following me so i told him to fuck off. Joined a verse choir thing & i have a solo part =\ ... frig, the english is so messed. what else? yeah i didn't know i could actually SING. i almost broke the kareoke machine with my amazing voice. HAAA! later, gonna go back to the place & sing some more even though i'm sick. what else? ohh yes i'm a DRIVER NOW =) ... not a very safe one though, coz i nearly got into an accident the other day. fuck, what do you expect? a small road with sikads & skaters on crusty bikes. when i turn 18, gonna get a license coz as of right now, i have no time! tommorow in the morning, gonna ride with some friends. HAAA, i have officially became a choriographer. Gonna choriograph a dance for an intermission number in a few days.. hmmm randomness in this entry. well i guess i'll just shut the fuck up and get back to biz.. gotta get ready for later.
TOODLES!